I got Drunk

At my brother’s funeral, I wanted to stand up and speak.

Instead, I froze.

My mind raced. My body shut down. I left… and I drank.

In this raw and intimate episode, I unpack what really happened beneath that moment,  how grief collapses time, how stress overwhelms the nervous system, and why shame can be louder than loss.

This isn’t about perfection.
It’s about being honest when your armor cracks in public.

If you’re navigating sobriety, grief, masculinity, or the weight of being “the strong one,” this episode will feel familiar.

Sometimes we don’t fall because we’re weak.

Sometimes we fail because we care too much.